Happy August! Ahh, the blank canvas that is a new month. It feels so good sometimes! But seriously, where did July go? Where is 2011 going??
Remember when I said I wasn't going to track for awhile? Yeah, I think I'm going to start tracking tomorrow again. Today's after dinner food included 2 pieces of zucchini bread with butter AND about half a container of strawberries dipped in white chocolate AND 3 mouthfuls of redi whip straight from the can.
Yesterday, after I posted, was a continuing spiral downward, including a yelling match with my dad when he snapped at me for putting the case of water under his sink in the garage when I didn't even put it there. Yeah, that was the final straw for me, and poor dad got the brunt of my bad mood all day. We both apologized when I got back from my walk, but my mood was still lousy. I went over Mr. Skinny's parent's house then, and put on a smile for there. Eventually "fake it until you make it" worked out and I was in a better mood. It was just a bad day yesterday.
This morning started out a bit better, went for a run. I just wanted to go for a slow run, and still ended up with an 11 minute mile. I ran 2.61, but honestly could have ran longer. I turned around too fast. I might hit up another run tomorrow morning though.
It's been an okay day today. I'm getting out of my funk, slowly. I think I just want to know where I'll be in a month, and where I'll be in a year. Will I be pregnant? Have my baby in a year? We're throwing around vacation ideas with my family, and since they don't know we're TTC, I can't really say much. I don't like my job anymore than I did when I first started. Sure, it's getting easier, but I hate not being able to cook for my family. I miss cooking every day. I know we need the money, but I think that's why I want to be pregnant so quickly, so I can count down to when I can quit my job.
Hopefully I'm in the upwards part of this funk. I just need to focus on each day one at a time and appreciate the time I have with Mr. Skinny. God is in charge and it's all up to Him. I just need to get myself in tip-top baby makin' condition and everything will work out.
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Do you have a problem with patience sometimes?
When was the last "funk" you were in?
If one day goes by in which I wasn't EVERY inpatient, I think the earth would stop spinning. LOL, I'm very inpatient! I cannot tell you how many times I've been told "Patience is a virtue".
ReplyDeleteI'm just getting out of a non-tracking disaster that was a PMS/TOM/Boyfriend's birthday. Excuses, I know, but it is what it is, and I'm back now! :-)
I'm glad that you are getting out of the funk.
I hope the funk goes away soon!! Those can be so frustrating. I get them all the time it seems. I was just in a funk a few weeks ago because I feel like my future is kind of up in the air, too. I have found that taking things day by day can help sometimes.
ReplyDeleteGreat job on that run! I get in a funk, usually about ever 28 days. :)
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