Nope, it did not. I wrote 3 pages of it, but I only wrote that yesterday, so I totally vegged on Saturday and really didn't do much of anything, and I am not ashamed of it. I loved it. Now don't get me wrong, I love being married, but it's nice to have a day once in awhile to relax in your jammies all day and watch what I want to watch on TV, and not have the hubs butt in and want to watch ESPN. It was a great day.
Yesterday we surprisingly went to church. Now I sound like a bad Christian saying that, but since we got married we didn't really find a church. We have one down here, but we go so sparatically that I feel like a bad Christian when we do go because we don't go every Sunday. The reasoning behind that is because we're not home every Sunday, but you can't explain that to a church really. Between my church at home and my cousin's church, we generally go to church just about every Sunday, and if we're home, then we usually just watch Charles Stanley on TV. I know I want to find a church before we have kids, I want my kids to be involved in church, but right now, it's just easier to watch Charles Stanley at home then it is to get up, dressed and drive to church. But we went, and I'm very glad that we went. I think we'll make it a habit to go when we're home.
Another urge of baby fever. This church that we went to, we haven't been there since March, the week before Chuck got a job. This time we go, and there are three, yes, three babies. I could barely pay attention to the sermon because I kept dreaming. After church we went grocery shopping and there were two pregnant ladies checking out behind us. I just couldn't stop staring, I'm totally the creeper that loves pregnant bellies and children of all ages. This is so hard, I was born to be a mom, but I know it's not a smart decision right now, we're not financially ready, we live in a junky apt. People think I'm totally psycho for thinking this way, but I do. We're mature enough, I think, and we've been together for 6 years, we don't have much that we want to do before we have kids. Want to know a secret? Even though I'm on the pill, I secretly pray that it'll fail and I'll get pregnant. I know, it's terrible. That way though, it would truly be God telling me that I should have kids now, and I could tell everyone that this was honestly unplanned, but no. I know, I should have lived in the 1950's.
Anyways, I'll just keep working in school and slowly getting through that so that I can work and we can pay off as much as possible, and then we can have babies! Because that's the whole purpose of my life: to have and raise children.
*Proverbs 31*
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