I had a wedding to go to on Saturday, I didn't eat like a pig, but I ate, and enjoyed the food. I keep wanting to slap myself in the forehead for doing this EVERY WEEKEND! Really though, I should embrace it, just know that I'll probably not track every weekend, but focus on eating real food, getting my GHG's and tracking really well during the week. I can still loose weight, it might not be as fast as I could, but slow and steady wins the race.
In other words, a member of my family is pregnant. I'm so super excited for her, but this puts baby fever in the foreground of my mind. I've always wanted to be a mom, always, and that is my number one dream job. Yes, you can think I'm crazy but I don't care about finishing school, I know in my heart that God created me to be a mom. It's interesting, we were talking about my sister-in-law going to get her Ph.D., my other sister-in-law is going for her master's and I'm quite content with my bachelor's degree once I have it in May. I just had a picture in my mind of my sisters-in-law and me in 5 years. I'll be chasing babies around the house, and I can just picture the one who is really just about a genius, giving some fancy talk about something smart, and I'll just have my kids. I don't feel resentful at all regarding that either. That's what I want to do.
Honestly, the only thing that is holding us back from having kids is money. And I HATE that money is the only thing, it's not that we're not ready to be parents, or we need to grow up first. We don't care about taking any trips to Europe and having just "us" time before we have kids. None of that matters to us. We just don't have the MONEY to do it. We know it's not smart to bring a child into this world without having financial stability. I got a refund check from my college, and that paid off one of our credit cards. We'll get another one in January which will pay off another card and we'll be left with just one more credit card. I'm despretely hoping that we can pay that off rather quickly and have kids. I know I'm young and we should enjoy our time together, but that's like putting off college, in my mind, because of something. This is my dream, this is what I want to do, this is all I want to do.
Anyways, all the more reason to stay on my WW journey and get down to a healthy weight so that I can be healthy for my babies and live until they're old and gray. If I don't think I need to do this for me, then I need to do it for them. Our baby bucket list includes paying off credit cards and me being at a healthy weight. I need to get down to the healthy weight before we're done paying off the cards, I don't want me to have to be waiting on me to loose the weight.
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