Good Wife/Bad Wife

I'm having trouble accepting my "wifely duties" and before anyone gets upset about sexism, please don't get your panties in a bunch. As a Christian wife, there are certain obligations that a wife needs to do in order to make her marriage successful. Submitting herself to her husband is one of them. I think that Meagan explains it in a way that I cannot. Check it out. This passage was a part of our pre-marital counseling, but I didn't truly understand it until Meagan explained it that way.

I am a selfish person. I get it from my Dad. I like people to do things for me, and get annoyed when they don't. When I do something, I want praise. This is a HUGE stumbling block for my marriage. Mr. Skinny does A LOT and when I say a lot, I mean it. He is so kind and thoughtful, he works his butt off to provide for us and does just about anything I ask him to do. He's starting to get annoyed with me that I can't do the small, few things that he asks of me to do. So yesterday at church, I really started praying about changing and being less selfish.

This morning, while I was reading my daily devotion I realized how amazing it is that God created each and every one of us. We were made in His image and He took the time to creat each one of us and thought about every little thing about us. I realized that I'm not doing Him justice by allowing my selfishness to take over my life and my marriage, and I'm knocking the selfish impulses down.

Last night I made Mr. Skinny's lunch and got all his snacks out for him, and I let him balance the checkbook. I unpacked the clothes while he unpacked the toiletries. I did my homework on the way home while he drove. I should have drove the second half home, but I was on a role and he said it was okay. I'm really going to try to continue this. I'm not saying I won't even slip back, but I feel like a better person, and a better Christian for realizing this and trying to actively change.

Other than that, the weekend was a pretty big fail - WW wise. I'm still debating if I want to face the scale this week, or wait until next week. I'm back to healthy eating, but it's the weekends that are SO incredibly difficult. I need to work on them.

Sorry this post was a little all over the place, and sorry I'm MIA so much - school is taking over my life for the next 6 weeks or so. I'm not looking forward to it.