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I owe you guys an explanation. You see, I kind of left you hanging after our unsuccessful month of TTC. Since we were unsuccessful, it made us think a little bit about our decision. I've gotten 2 "surprise" loans in the past few weeks, and it's making me nervous about our financial situation. And on Friday night we brought home our new (to us) truck. I know Mr. Skinny needs a truck for winter, and we talked about the money and we'll be okay. We have a plan to pay off our credit cards, and I hope my parents don't get sick of us because we'll probably be living here for a few years before we have our house.

I've said this before and I'll say it again, if we made my parent's house a mess when we moved in and people had to switch bedrooms to let us have space, I would feel really bad about moving in. But, my parents have a whole extra bedroom, with its own bathroom, and walk in closet that is private from the rest of the house and that's where we're living. My parents would like to move back down to that room eventually, and if they ever told us they wanted it, we would just take their room upstairs. It's no big deal at all.

So, back to the baby plans. I usually think people are crazy when they say they aren't trying to get pregnant, but they aren't preventing, but that's the situation that we're in now. We aren't going to be actively trying again until January, maybe, but we aren't using any form of birth control in the meantime. I'm not tracking when I'm supposedly ovulating, even though my cycle is so screwed up I don't think anyone could predict that anyway. If it happens we'll be thrilled, it if doesn't, we'll wait until January or so and see where we are then.

It's taken me a while, but I'm not worried about it anymore. After a month of sex every. other. day. I'm done with that, I can't do that. We'll do it when we want to, when we're in the mood. It won't feel like a chore and we would make a better baby that way anyway, if it's meant to happen.

I finally realize that there is a difference between trying and not preventing to get pregnant. I do get it and we just won't be trying. Everything will happen when it's supposed to. It might throw a loop in our 2012 summer plans since my brother is graduating from HS and he wants the whole family to go to VA Beach as his graduation present, but we'll figure that out if and when I get pregnant.

In the meantime, I'm just going to focus on working my way toward healthy. Eating right, hopefully trying to keep exercising, however I can, loosing weight and it will happen when it's supposed to happen.

BTW - go give Jana a congratulations - she's pregnant!

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Tell me:

Do you stress about your financial situation?

Are you more carefree about life? How about your significant other?