update on pop pop: part II

If you haven't been following on Pop-Pop, here's the backstory: the history and the first update.

Today, I check my phone in between classes and see a call from Grandma. Uh oh. We haven't been updated of anything for over 1 week, last we knew he was okay, just on antibiotics from the bowel infection. I check my voicemail: she sounds okay, but only says to call her back as soon as I can. So I think if I have enough time between my classes, decide that Pop Pop is worth it even if I'm late for class, while silently praying that it has nothing to do with Pop Pop. I call her back, she has bad news. Pop Pop's not doing good, they're going to replace his pacemaker. Okay, I say. We're all going down tomorrow, we don't know if he's going to make it through the surgery. Oh no. Okay, I say, we'll be praying. Keep us updated.

Crap. Lord, help me. Mr. Skinny doesn't know. I start to break down. I have one more class to go, I have to keep it together. I don't want to text my husband and tell him his grandfather might die. I can't do that. So I just prayed during the entire class, trying to stay participated and focused, but I can't.

I'm hoping that the professor doesn't call on me. I don't want to talk. Let me get out of class. Finally, she lets us out early, and I text Mr. Skinny: did grandma call you? if not, call me asap. He responds that he can't call me, and I should tell him what's going on. I text him and tell him, but I don't know how he's going to react. I want to be there with him. He said that Grandma and Dad both tried to call him but he couldn't talk.

We don't know when he's having the surgery. We don't know if we should go home tonight, and what's going to happen. I broke down no less than 5 times on the 20 minute drive home.

Lord help me be okay with whatever plans you have for Pop Pop. Help my in-laws turn to you during this difficult time. Help us make the right decisions and turn to You for comfort and guidance during this time.

I'll keep you posted.